Does anyone know??

 Does anyone know that I'm dying inside?
Does anyone know that I would have given up everything if I had the guts?
Does anyone know that I'm really not happy?

 Does anyone know??

Sick of pretending. Sick of lying to myself. Sick of all this. If I only had the guts to live my dreams.

I hate it that you know everything.
It scares me so much.

Time to pull away.

Never cried so much.

Sometimes I think..
It's so much easier being alone.

Possibly the biggest mistake of my life.

Because I am not a simple person to understand.
Because I don't know what I want.
Because I'm too indecisive and I don't want to drag you down with me.

And because it's you, you refuse to leave me.
And because it's you, you refuse to let my own disturbing thoughts haunt me.
And because it's you, you always turn a frown upside down.

Maybe I should learn to cherish and stop doubting so many things.
Maybe then, I will be able to live with myself.

Do I expect too much?
Because things haven't been going my way recently and it really annoys me.

Don't know what some of my friends think I am.
Pissed off!
I am not a push over!
I am not here for your convenience!
So get over yourselves!!!


Excited to move out.
Piano all day long!
Need more scores.